Good Girls Get Angry

15 Jul

While I was growing up, I was taught never to show my anger. My parents didn’t allow children to throw tantrums, so I watched my younger siblings being beaten with a belt over and over until their wills were broken. I believe this happened to me too, because for most of my life, I have been unable to access my anger.

Growing up in an environment where I was told that “good girls don’t get angry” only caused me to absorb all kinds of abuse starting with the physical and emotional abuse doled out by my parents. I have been on a journey of healing. As I write out the stories of my childhood and reframe them, I have finally discovered my anger and my voice.

When I write about my childhood, and most ACoNs* say, “Yeah me too.” All narcissistic families have similar patterns. No matter how much we love some people there is nothing we can do unless they are willing to be honest and treat us with respect. Most ACoNs realize this will never happen because narcissists care more about being right than having a relationship and they don’t change when they get to church. This is why many church leaders wield power over others with an appalling lack of empathy.

I grew up in the Seventh-day Adventist Church. Last week they held a vote over Women’s ordination to decide if different world divisions could decide for themselves about ordaining women. People from all nations voted, but some nations voted in blocks due to their local politics. The air was charged with politics and hate even to the point of booing a former president. Not only is our current world president firmly against women’s ordination, he used his position to push his own agenda on the rest of the church.

Of course the vote was no. Considering all the nations represented, I see no way it could be yes, because we are talking about nations where female mutilation is practiced and male headship is common. Such cultures ridicule the thought of woman leaders. I just had higher hopes for our American church leaders. Unfortunately, the false doctrine of male headship appears to be swaying a lot of votes despite the fact that our seminary has refuted it. For those of us who believe women are equal to men this has been a travesty.

I personally believe the vote and all the politics around it have misrepresented God’s character to the world. I believe the God who created women, also calls them. We see this in the life of Jesus from allowing to Mary to sit at His feet like a disciple, to His calling of the Samaritan woman at the well who brought her entire town to meet Jesus. When Jesus rose again, He gave the first message about the resurrection–not to John or Peter, but to Mary and ordained her to give to the men who were hiding in an upper room. It’s obvious for those willing to see that God calls women.

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Since the vote a week ago, we have been told from the top down to stop talking about women’s ordination. They say the vote is over and now it’s time to get on with our lives, but that leaves a crippled church limping along by respecting only half of the members. I don’t believe it’s over until the church endorses women with equality.

This affects more than women pastors, it affects every woman in the church who has gifts to share but has been accused of usurping a man’s role for sharing Jesus. It trickles down to the little girl who wonders if God loves her as much as her brother. Despite how our leadership acts, it’s important to note God is not a narcissistic Parent–Jesus showed us by kneeling down to wash dirty feet that God cares about every person and if the Father sees a sparrow fall, how much more does He care about how a woman pastor is treated?

This last week, many of us wore black clothes and ampersands to church. The ampersand represents men & women working together–not men over women, nor women over men, but a complete and equal partnership. We wanted to show our mourning and solidarity because through this vote, fringe beliefs have hijacked our church and distorted God’s character to the world. The Seventh day Adventist church has NEVER supported male headship. It came into the church from Bill Gothard and most never dreamed this could happen.

So this week, we are regrouping. We who understand that God created Eve equal to Adam before the fall. We who understand that Jesus came to destroy the devil’s work and restore us back to equality. We take joy when we read Paul saying there is no male or female in Christ, yet we are now subjected to a splitting and often abusive church family who condemn us for following Jesus and our own conscience.

Several TV preachers are so against women pastors that they have been writing books and posting videos proclaiming women’s ordination is a tool of the devil. One after another of my friends–including myself, have been told we are being deceived just like Eve and under satanic influence merely for serving God with the gifts He has given us.

Jimmy Carter and the Elders who have studied this around the world say that male headship contributes to the abuse of women all over the world. Our own church seminary has refuted the practice of male headship and our historian George Knight has given us a rundown on what exactly ordination means in the video below, but few seem to be listening to his logic.

There are people who would rather see men in power than work beside women and this includes our president. Ted Wilson has gone so far as to avoid being on the platform when a woman pastor was commissioned–something already approved by the church. If he truly wants to represent Christ, then why not pray over a woman who has dedicated her entire life to serving God? Jesus laid His hands on children and blessed them, should we give women less?

Suddenly people who haven’t spoken to us for months feel a need to set us straight on our Facebook statuses. They call accuse us of being selfish or led by the devil. It would be funny if it was not real and many are relatives or old friends who feel they have the right to condemn us for not seeing it like they do. It doesn’t help that our church president is calling for us to stop talking about this and embrace unity, but how can there be unity when any part of the body is hurting? Does it not affect the rest of the body too?

The worst part is we have been told it’s over—to stop focusing on how we treat women because we need to be ready for Jesus to come. Once again, it’s God they use so they can abuse. Most ACoNs see these patterns of power over and control and recognize them for what they are, but this general lack of empathy for women is a shame for a church that says it represents Christ to the world.

In all of these attacks on women’s value, I have not lost my faith, but I have found my anger.

I am angry when Christians raise themselves above others by using the steps of Satan instead of the Steps of Jesus.

I am angry when dishonest people write books that are the 21st century equivalent to a 17th century witch hunt.

I am angry when corrupt politics invades God’s church and people are allowed to manipulate the vote and then leaders call it God’s will.

I am angry when we have a church president who shows little empathy for the pain of women and tells us to have unity while he continues to ignore our pain.

I am angry that family members have been suckered into this male headship deception and feel it is their religious duty to condemn women pastors and all who support them.

I am angry when ignorant people try to stop women from serving Jesus.

I am angry that the most important event in history (the second coming of Jesus) is being used to manipulate hurting women into silence.

And I am most angry because this vote of my church–the Seventh day Adventist church has misrepresented God’s character to the world.

So no, Elder Wilson, we will not be silent. You might have control over your cabinet, but you cannot control our hearts and thoughts. If you wish for unity, you must care about the part of the body that is hurting.

And God, in case you haven’t heard, is exactly like Jesus in character and Jesus loves and calls women.

The surge is only beginning to rise. We are many “Ezer Kenegdos”–designed, empowered and called by God.

Good girls and women get angry when we see that God has called women and our leaders will not do unto others as they would like to be treated. Yes, this misrepresentation makes us angry—the way Jesus got angry when He cleansed the temple. Mark my words. Jesus is coming physically in the future, but He has already come into the hearts of many and He is cleansing temples right now. The question our leaders need to ask themselves, is does God really see me more important than women?

Allow me to repeat this, we will NOT be silent. We are half of the army God has called and enabled to serve and even if the GC president withholds his blessing, God will continue to empower women. I have many friends around the world who are standing with us—some pledging to wear ampersands and black until this is set right. Heaven’s angels gather around us as a great crowd of witnesses.

Sure, we are staring into darkness right now, but we can see a gleam of light on the horizon. Our hearts burn within us and no one–not the president of our church, or fanatical TV preachers or the self-righteous members of our families, can stop what God ordains. You can’t hold back the dawn.

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God Calls Women

Jimmy Carter TED Talk On Women’s Abuse

Andrew University Headship Statement

Healthy Anger Sermon by Seth Pierce

The Biblical Meaning Of Ordination by George Knight

Inside Out Movie Review for ACONs

2 Jul


Have you ever wondered what’s going inside your head? Pixar has given us a new tool for this. “Inside Out,” their newest release, is a drama on the inside of a girl’s head named Riley.

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The main characters are a panel of creatures who stand in for Riley’s emotions. Anyone who’s been to counseling might be familiar with them. Joy is the most active and she often tries to help Riley by monitoring all the other emotions who are aptly named Sadness, Anger, Fear and Disgust.

The story begins at Riley’s birth where Joy is the first to appear. As Riley grows up with Joy, Sadness, Anger and Fear take their turns leading her thoughts. Fear occasionally pops in to teach Riley how to remain safe. Anger finds a way to inspire Riley into action and Disgust (an alternative emotion made up for the movie) works to repel Riley from obnoxious situations. But the one emotion that seems to be shoved to the back seat is Sadness—this happens especially when Joy is in the driver’s seat.

Have you ever seen those memes on social media that tell you to forget the past and be happy? While there is truth to not wallowing in the misery of the past, this story explains why we need to remember the past and allow our sadness to touch us so we can move forward to joy.

While Joy tries to keep Sadness from touching Riley’s core memories, the internal plot going on in Riley’s head is both inspired and complicated by her real life. When Riley is eleven her family moves from Minnesota to California—setting off a chain of events that is scary and painful for Riley.

When the family’s moving van gets lost, Riley is left sleeping on the floor with only a few of her familiar things. Then her father is having stress with his new job. Meanwhile everything is different out west. Wherever Riley turns in her new neighborhood, things are different than what she is used to and she eventually discovers that even pizza is not always what she thinks it should be.

At school, the teacher asks her to tell about Minnesota where she came from and suddenly she becomes very sad when she realizes she will not be seeing her old friends back home anymore. Inside her head, Joy freaks out when Sadness touches one of Riley’s core memories and tells Sadness not to touch any of them.

One of Riley stress factors is because she has no core memories of her new home to get her through these rough times. If you were an ACON who moved constantly, this is what might have happened inside your head too. When we face stressful times, we rely on familiar patterns of friends and places, but moving disrupts this.

The family crisis outside of Riley’s head causes lots of confusion for her panel of emotions inside. Riley’s is stressed about her new school and leaving all her old friends, but when her mother comes in to tell her good night, she says “Where is my happy girl? Daddy needs us to be happy.”

Riley wants to please her parents so she blocks out her own confusion and pain to smile on the outside, but this causes an inner turmoil among the panel of emotions inside her head. Fear pushes the panic button a few times, while Sadness starts touching all of Riley’s core memories. Joy feels this will ruin Riley’s memories so she tries to keep Sadness from touching them. Joy and Sadness fight it out and the result is that neither of them are available for Riley because they get lost in her long term memory vault.

While Joy and Sadness are trying to find their way back to Riley’s thinking center, Anger and Fear take over the controls. Riley decides to steal money from her mom’s purse to jump on a bus and go back where she came from. Riley is now not only in an emotional crisis, but she is possibly in physical danger because Anger has over ruled Fear.

Joy and Sadness are still lost, but they start to talk about their favorite memories of Riley. What Joy remembers as a wonderful Joy-filled experience, Sadness only remembers as a Sadness orchestrated experience. It turns out they are both right—that Joy and Sadness are flip sides to the same core memory and that’s when Joy realizes that Riley needs Sadness to be able to experience Joy.

This goes along with Brené Brown’s research that we cannot selectively numb our emotions. We can’t ignore our sadness and still experience joy. This is where we ACONs cannot listen to our narcissistic parents or our flying monkey relatives, we can only be responsible for our own healing and that includes honoring the sad moments in our lives. This is the only path to joy.

It is only when Riley finally experiences sadness that she decides to turn back to home and safety. That includes more sadness as she finally tells her parents what has been going on inside her head and how she is sad over the move. Once she does this, she is free to experience joy again. Lucky for Riley, her parents are not narcs and they listen to her sadness.

For a healthy family dynamic, the sadness of a child must connect with empathy. As the writers of the Empathy Trap have explained narcissists lack empathy and we need all empathy to heal. When we were told to ignore our pain, it only increased our fear and anger, but we need sadness to honor our losses so we can experience joy.

I don’t know about you, but as a Christian, I was taught that sadness is bad. That Jesus loves happy girls. This is also where many Christians have failed to love others. When they tell us that Jesus needs happy witnesses or likes happy Christians, they are failing to allow us to process our pain. The most healing thing a Christian can do is show empathy for those who are hurting.

This attitude if judging someone as though they have no right to their emotions is not reflective of Jesus. Jesus was a man of sorrows. He wept because of He empathized with the pain of the people He created.

This might seem like a silly story, but it has a lot of truth in it. It illustrates the emotional struggles going on in all of our minds and explains why some people are so angry and scared. They have simply shut down and are making their decisions from the fear center of the brain.

I would recommend this movie to everyone who had a hard childhood. It’s well worth the price of admission. But even more important, I hope that all ACONs can realize we have the right to remember our past—even our sad memories because without honoring our pain, we might struggle for years to find joy.

Male Headship 7—The Headship of Jesus

26 Jun

For those who grew up with corrupt male headship I have good news for you.

For those who grew up with fathers who were more concerned with being in charged as the head of the home…

For those who grew up with fathers who hit them and controlled them because he was bigger or held all the money and power…

For those who grew up with fathers who were more concerned with their own needs than their children’s…

For those who grew up with Fathers who judged you and condemned you when you didn’t follow his religious or political choices…

For those who were belittled and abused under the title of headship…

I offer you the headship of Jesus.

The Headship of Jesus Says:

“If you are tired from carrying heavy burdens, come to me and I will give you rest. Take the yoke I give you. Put it on your shoulders and learn from me. I am gentle and humble, and you will find rest.” – Matthew 11:28-29

This doesn’t sound at all like the male headship we have learned from humans.

1. As the Head, Jesus Always Provides 
He allows the rain and sun fall on the just and unjust. No matter who you are or what you have done, He will not withhold the blessings of sunshine and rain on you. And He has told us to not worry about tomorrow because He has already planned all of our days and it is taken care of. But because He knows we will have doubts, He says we can ask Him for help.

2. As the Head, Jesus Takes Full Responsibility
For Everything That Goes Wrong. He sent Adam and Eve from the garden to protect them from becoming immortal sinners. He is saving paradise for all who will allow Him to heal us. But even greater, He came and lived among us sharing our pain, took all the responsibility for our messy lives and made up the difference by dying for us.

3. As the Head, Jesus Always Puts Others Before Himself
Jesus made himself lower than the angels and died the death of criminal. He does the work of a servant and washes everyone’s feet—not just the feet of Peter and John, but He even washes the feet of his enemies—consider Judas who had already planned to betray him.

4. As the Head, Jesus is Always Honest
This Head never lies or tricks you to manipulate you into doing something for him. Jesus not only calls Himself the Truth, but He always tells the truth and stands on the side of the truth.

5. As the Head, Jesus is Always Inclusive
This Head always welcomes us to eat with Him and He doesn’t wait for us to come to Him, He’s already knocking on our doors. No matter who you are and where you have been or what you have done, if you ask Him for help, He will never shun you or ignore you.

6. As the Head, Jesus Grants Freedom to All
This Head gave us our freedom and allows us to choose if we want to remain in relationship with Him. He even gives us a holiday each week through the Sabbath so we can have free time with Him and each other—and He doesn’t control how we spend that time.

7. As the Head, Jesus Empowers Others
Jesus treats women as well as he treats men. He has as much love for women as men. And that goes for color of skin or any position in life. Jesus loves all of us equally and bestows His gifts on all.

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For those who claim that men should always own the headship of the home, this is how the headship of Jesus behaves:

The headship of Jesus is patient,
The headship of Jesus is kind,
The headship of Jesus isn’t jealous,
The headship of Jesus doesn’t brag,
The headship of Jesus isn’t arrogant,
The headship of Jesus isn’t rude,
The headship of Jesus doesn’t seek its own advantage,
The headship of Jesus isn’t irritable,
The headship of Jesus doesn’t keep a record of complaints,
The headship of Jesus isn’t happy with injustice,
The headship of Jesus is happy with the truth.
The headship of Jesus puts up with all things,
The headship of Jesus trusts in all things,
The headship of Jesus hopes for all things,
The headship of Jesus endures all things.

The headship of Jesus is never fails.
(1 Corinthians 13:4-8)

If any man on this earth wants to claim true Christian headship, this is what it looks like. No human can do this fully, but we can always be grateful for the headship of Christ. Where there is equality, both men and women should aim for this goal of being like Christ.

Male Headship 6—The Exoneration of Eve

23 Jun

Have you ever made a mistake that haunted you, but no one else wants to forget it? People have been saying for thousands of years, “If only Mother Eve had not tasted that fruit, we would all be sitting in paradise right now.” Eve not only has the reputation for being the first to sin, but she has passed her shame down to her daughters. The false belief of male headship perpetuates the myth that Eve is the cause for all the suffering in this world and because of this, all women are inferior to men.

Throughout creation, God kept making things more and more complete. Humanity was the last and crowing act of creation. God pronounced everything good—until he came to Adam. This is the one thing that God says is NOT good—Adam should not be alone. So God created Eve from Adam’s rib. Some think this means Eve was an extension of Adam—that Eve was only created as an afterthought to be Adam’s helper.

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But God did not create Eve to be a subservient, sexy slave for Adam because God is LOVE and the godhead lives out eternity in other-centered love with each other. Humanity would not be in God’s image unless we were created equal and with the freedom to serve each other with other-centered love as God lives.

For those sticking rigidly to the King James Version of the Bible, something important gets lost in translation. Eve is more than a “helpmate.” She is actually an Ezer Kenegdo in the original Hebrew. The words Ezer Kenegdo are hard to translate according to Hebrew scholar Robert Alter. Ezer is also used as a name for God and it is only used a few times in the Bible, but it’s used when God comes through as a lifesaver. So a translation of Ezer Kenegdo could be calling Eve “the lifesaver who comes along side.”

The scriptures say male and female were made in God’s image. By creating Eve from Adam’s rib, God was making them one. It wasn’t until both male and female were created that God’s image could be reflected in the human race. It might surprise some people that God has a feminine side, but this confusion is a symptom of the fall. We can find the feminine face of God in several verses throughout scripture. Eve’s femininity reflects God as much as Adam’s masculinity.

There is equality when two people stand side by side. They are two parts of a whole intended to become one. Adam said, “She is bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh.” At this point Adam knew Eve is a part of him. We don’t say to our legs they are worth more than our hands because every part of our body is equal and important. This proves that Eve was not created to follow behind Adam with a water bucket, but she was designed with equal intelligence and reflects the feminine face of God.

Adam and Eve together had a part in the fall. Eve was deceived, but Adam sinned knowingly. Together they have unlocked the Pandora’s box of misery unleashing the enemy’s power. The world was now unsafe and no one could be trusted. The human race would now live in fear and other-centered love will be replaced by a survival of the fittest mentality.

God explained to Adam and Eve what was happening, His words were not as much a curse as some believe, but to reveal the damage already begun. God doesn’t need to curse Adam and Eve for any of these things to happen, because the curse was started before God even spoke. Sin makes us do crazy things. Adam and Eve have already discovered they were naked. They have already started blaming each other. They were already hiding in the bushes feeling vulnerable and scared. Their choice to separate from God and do their own thing has created this new reality.

The natural result of their sin is that Adam will now vie for control and win—because he is stronger and larger. And Eve’s heart will cry out for her husband because she is tender-hearted and relationship oriented. Adam will now work harder in less fertile soil and Eve will suffer to bring new lives into this now pain-filled world. God is merely describing the trials to come.

God sent Adam and Eve away from Eden—not as a punishment, but to protect them from themselves because immortal sinners would be a horror too great to bear. If only they could go back and ignore the snake, different choices could have provided another outcome, but unlike a broken vase that can be glued back together, there was no way to fix broken humanity except through the Deliverer to come.

The only one who could save them is the one originally maligned by the snake. Jesus will come to set things right, but before this happens, the sin experiment will claim many lives and the perfect union God intended between two equals will be under attack for thousands of years.

Because of their selfishness, God knew they would fight so He placed Adam in charge of   the family because two sinful people vying for control would create constant chaos. If you don’t believe this, just listen to a few divorce stories.

It was not God’s ideal for the husband to rule over his wife. If Adam truly followed the servant pattern of the Godhead who created Him, he would set his wife free to be whoever God created her to be.

Jesus Came to Restore Eve to Her Rightful Place

After thousands years, humanity endorsed male headship as if it was God’s original plan, but Jesus came to restore what was broken in the fall. Jesus came to destroy the devil’s work of causing division between Adam and Eve and God and all of humanity.

Can you imagine how God must’ve felt? He has created human beings in His image to model other-centered love to the children of the human race, but half of His image has been marginalized. At the very center of His plan, all Adams and all Eves have been torn apart and no longer operate as one. Generation after generation, have grown up in confusion and lacking love because they have witnessed their parents’ divisive, manipulating and controlling behavior. Jesus came to restore God’s image in Adam’s sons and Eve’s daughters. To do this, women were strategically placed throughout the gospel story to show us that God values women as much as men. With every interaction, Jesus removes the shame of Eve.

For starters, God gives an unwed pregnant Eve the honor of announcing the coming of the Messiah.

When a sinful Eve is brought before Him caught in adultery, Jesus reminds every Eve since the dawn of time that He did not come to condemn us.

Even a bleeding Eve is not turned away from touching Him because Jesus has come to heal every modern Eve of her wounds.

Where Eve is confined to the outer courts of the temple, Jesus cleanses the temple and invites her inside.

When Eve shut is out of the religious customs, Jesus encourages Eve to sit at His feet like a disciple.

To the outcast Samaritan Eve, Jesus goes out of His way to find her and meet her where she is to reassure her of His love. It is this reassurance and love that melts her shame and allows her to become the first missionary.

When Eve’s worship of Him seems too intimate for others, Jesus commends her for anointing Him.

For thousands of years, Eve has been called the problem and her daughters have worn her shame, but Eve is not the only one responsible. Adam is responsible for his part. The devil is responsible for the deception of Eve. And ultimately God takes responsibility for creating all of this mess and Jesus came to set it right.

The original crime happened in a garden. A woman was deceived. But thousands of years later in another garden, Eve is exonerated through her daughter Mary. Mary as the second Eve, deeply grieves her fall. She knows her own brokenness and has lived to regret it. She has been shunned and ridiculed. Her status as a daughter of God has been in question—until the Deliverer has come.

Just when Mary’s life seems to be coming back together, Jesus is killed. Now this second Eve cries alone in a garden because it seems every Adam has forsaken her. She mistakes Him for the gardener, but then isn’t He the original gardener of this world? It is only when Jesus tenderly calls out her name that she realizes hope is not lost.

Throughout His life on earth, Jesus has been running a pass around the religious leaders by empowering women on the side. Jesus came to take away Eve’s shame and Adam’s superiority and in case you think this is too feminist—take note: Jesus IS a feminist. He is the original Creator and Author of all that is feminine. It is only when humanity catches on to this and every Eve is offered her rightful place as an equal, that the human race will finally be restored back to God’s image.

On resurrection day, as a part of his victory, Jesus exonerates Eve and sets her back in equality next to Adam. Instead of asking Peter or Andrew or John, Jesus gives Mary the most important message of all. The message that He is alive and risen is given for Mary to preach. As a daughter of Eve and the daughter of God, Mary claims Eve’s rightful inheritance. And it’s just as true for every modern Eve today.

*Verses with God as Ezer: Duet. 33;26,29; Psalm 121:1,2; Psalm 20:1,2; Psalm 33:20; Psalm 115:9-11

Male Headship 5—Adam’s Denial

22 Jun

The saying, “It’s a man’s world” is a sad reality. One half of the human race is treated as less and not as worthy from birth and the worst of it is that some Christians claim several reasons for male superiority.

1. Women are Biologically Inferior to Men
Proponents of male headship say because he was created first, God intended for Adam to rule over Eve. If we followed this idea through to its natural conclusion, we might imagine monkeys have headship over all humans because they were created first.

Because Eve was created from Adam’s rib, some claim women were meant to be an extension of Adam, but these theories leave out the fact that the Godhead said, “Let us make humankind in our image.” This would include Eve as well as Adam. Eve reflects the feminine side of God.

Did God create Eve to be some bimbo brain to carry Adam’s water bucket? I think NOT. Consider the wise women of the Bible who saved many lives. There is Abigail whose husband was foolish. Deborah who was a judge and leader. Esther who took the risk of sacrificing her life for her people.

The New Testament is full of examples of women and Jesus–some supporting Him with their own money and the woman at the well who carried the gospel to her entire town. It’s obvious God gave women with an equal mind and I believe He intends for us to use it.

2. Women Need to Submit to Men for Their Own Good

At the heart of all misogyny, patriarchy and false male headship is Adam’s denial of his own sin while blaming Eve. Proponents of male headship claim it was a woman who was deceived first, so it’s essential for woman’s salvation to allow a man to be her priest. This is supposed to protect her from being deceived like her great grandmother Eve.

This idea seems to leave out the fact that Adam knowingly sinned. Eve’s deception is no worse than Adam’s willing sin. “All have sinned and come short of God’s glory.” God’s glory is His character and no one misrepresents God’s character more than men who abuse their privilege as the head of the home.

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3. Patriarchy is a Biblical Institution
Yes, but so is slavery and polygamy. God was working with people wherever they were at throughout the Bible. There is no peace in the home where one partner gives up individuality to meet the other’s needs. To sacrifice our selfish desires is one thing, but to sacrifice who God created us to be is a crime—not only against self, but against our Creator.

There is nothing wrong with a man being the head of the home if—and only if he is kind to his wife and treats her like he himself would like to be treated. Unfortunately this is rarely the case in most male headship homes. For many wives and children living in homes filled with domestic violence, male headship equals slavery.

4. The Bible Must be Taken Literally
Proponents of male headship insist on taking the Bible literally—especially the words of Paul. Other verses are often ignored in favor of certain choice verses that sound like Paul is a misogynist. They cite Paul’s words that the wife is to obey her husband. They use this to command respect and duty from their wife and children, but Paul also tells us that the husband is to love his wife like Christ loves the church. If only more Christian marriages could reflect this as a reality.

When people choose to take a fundamentalist approach, they ignore the over-arching principles in scripture and the culture of the day. The Bible says “in the last days knowledge will be increased.” God has allowed knowledge to increase to help us understand the Bible better and to give us evidence so we can spread the gospel.

If we ignore the evidence that’s been found to better understand the scriptures, we might fail to use the knowledge that God has provided for us. This leaves lots of room for misinterpretation and possibly a failure to follow Jesus.

5. Great Pastors and Evangelists Support Male Headship, so it Must be OK
Even worse than misusing Paul’s words, is the lie that God created Eve to be less than Adam. This rumor is spread by well-meaning and kind looking preachers who have all sorts of amazing facts on the subject, but lack the true Spirit of Jesus. If you are in disagreement with this, I have a blog about Jesus and how He treated women to end this series.

The Pharisees were great religious leaders in Jesus’s day. They preached about and kept all of the Ten Commandments. They tithed every shekel. They kept the Sabbath like experts and taught everyone else to do the same. From all outward appearances they were lacking nothing, but they also made sure Jesus was dead so they could rush home in time to observe the Sabbath. These were the leaders of the church and many people followed them like sheep without thinking for themselves until they too joined in hurting Jesus.

When modern Eves feel disheartened by misogyny and false accusations, they are in good company because Adam not only blamed Eve, but he blamed God too. In Adam’s version, he was an innocent victim. He points to Eve for causing him to sin, them points to God for giving him the gift of Eve. Many modern Adams have blamed the companion God provided for him, while ignoring his own sin. His own neglect and selfishness have contributed to destroying the love they once shared, but he feels better blaming Eve.

Whatever we do to someone else—it’s the same as if we did it to Jesus. Jesus always stands with the marginalized. Jesus stands with women whether they have been beaten and abused or ignored and shunned. If men insist on subjugating women, they are actually subjugating Jesus Himself because Jesus said, “Whatever you do to the least of these, you have done it to Me.”

Male Headship 4—How It Supports Narcissism

19 Jun

There is a man I know who believes God has ordained him to control his family. He is married to a woman who had children before they were together and it is a struggle for him to allow them to be themselves because he feels he needs to police them. His efforts include locking the kitchen after bedtime in case the teenagers want a snack and putting a block on the computer so they don’t break the Sabbath.

One time I visited his house when his younger children had been put to bed without any supper because they wouldn’t say the Lord Prayer before the meal. His wife disagreed and was upset that her children were in bed crying from hunger, but she felt powerless to say anything because she believed her husband was the God-ordained head of the family and she must obey him.

I can think of no worse marriage than to be married to a narcissist who thinks God wants him to control the entire family, but that’s what happens when a narcissist feels ordained by God to practice male headship.

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The belief that man is superior to woman can be the first step to justify chauvinistic behavior. If God made Adam more important than Eve and he is celebrated as the leader, while she is expected to be his foot woman and water carrier, she is robbed of her God given individuality and freedom.

So let’s look through the traits of Narcissistic Personality Disorder and see how they might fit with the mindset of male headship. A person who manifests a pattern of five of these traits in their life is likely to be diagnosed with NPD.

(For the record, I am NOT a professional and this is not to be used to diagnose someone. If you think someone you are close to has this disorder please don’t rely on your own judgment, but find a good counselor.)

1. Has a Grandiose Sense of Self-Importance
The male headship belief that man is superior or has privileges over women justifies and empowers the narcissistic mind. Religion that insists on male headship attributes the inequality to God. Jimmy Carter and the Elders  (Elders of many nations) have declared that most of the abuse toward women in the world is related to patriarchy.

2. Preoccupied with Fantasies of Unlimited Success, Power, Brilliance, Beauty, or Ideal Love
Since male headship teaches that men are somehow superior to women, a woman’s dreams are not as important as the man’s. If a man has a bent toward any of the narcissistic dreams on this list, he might imagine God will help him to realize these plans.

This is not to say that God doesn’t help people, but the rationalization of the narcissistic mind tends to overlook how their goals might affect the lives of others. Narcissistic male headship allows a husband to sacrifice his family members’ best interests to meet his own needs.

3. Believes that He is “Special” and Unique
I had a relative who kept thinking he was getting visions and dreams from God that his wife and children would be killed if they didn’t follow his religious advice. Male headship narcissists often feel called by God to straighten out their grown children’s lives because they believe they are the only one who can interpret the Bible correctly.

4. Requires Excessive Admiration
Male headship basically requires that the entire family worship the father and tiptoe around his temper or bad habits without addressing them because he is the revered head of the home.

5. Has a Very Strong Sense of Entitlement
What is more entitling than being in control of the whole family with every one jumping at your bidding? Because proponents of male headship proclaim it’s God’s command, the narcissistic mind feeds further into this fantasy. Women and children are hidden and abused while the father lives like a king.

6. Is Exploitative of Others
Headship gives permission for men to use their wife or children in whatever way they want. They might use their children for labor or take their children’s money because the father owns everything and everyone in his family. The husband is the head so all things are managed by him and he has no one to answer to but God and if he doesn’t really listen to God, then there is no end to the harm he can do.

7. Lacks Empathy
According to the authors of the Empathy Trap Book, a lack of empathy is spurred on by apathetic bystanders. In a male headship family, the need to comply with the powers that be discourages family members from speaking up when one is being abused. This is not true of all male headship proponents, but if the husband is tending high on the narcissistic scale, his lack of empathy could very easily escalate into domestic violence. A male lacking empathy, who has control of his family with no accountability but himself, is a very dangerous person.

8. Is Often Envious of Others
This might or might not be true of a man practicing male headship, but it could still be another source of anger and violence which could only be exacerbated by the practice of male headship.

9. Regularly Shows Arrogant, Haughty Behaviors or Attitude
In male headship pride is often misnamed as honor. The narcissistic head of the family is threatened when an insubordinate wife or a child disagrees with him. When a man believes he is the priest of the family, he has the potential to inflict punishment and spiritual abuse on those who don’t comply with him. He might see them as rebellious and disrespectful when they choose to worship or pray differently than he has taught them and ultimately punish or shun them.

Male headship and narcissism are a dangerous mix. The combination can harm innocent people physically, emotionally and spiritually. narcissistic headship steals the freedom of the wife and children to grow into their own dreams and potential. They might struggle with who God designed them to be versus what “the head” wants them to be. Abusive male headship builds a barrier between children and God because they imagine God is just like their father.

Not all narcissists believe in male headship and not all proponents of male headship are narcissists, but wherever the two meet there is danger because male headship is truly a narcissist’s dream come true.

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Male Headship 3—Where Did It Come From?

18 Jun

The Patriarchs in the Bible practiced male headship, but they also practiced polygamy and owned slaves. Male headship, Polygamy and slavery all have one thing in common–the freedom of one man to use his power over at the expense of other people.

Abraham was a friend of God, yet he practiced all three, so does God condone these three practices? The Bible says Abraham’s father worshiped false gods (Joshua 24:2). God was calling Abraham out of that culture by first asking him to separate from his family and move out in faith. Even after he moved far away, Abraham’s life was a journey with God leading him and teaching him lessons throughout his lifetime.

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Some people say God never changes and this is what God allows. I agree that God’s character of love never changes, but God’s methods of dealing with the human race have changed over and over. The bigger picture shows us how God stoops to meet sinful and frightened people wherever they are at the time.

When it comes to how we treat others, Jesus is our example–not Abraham. Jesus came to set ALL captives free:

The Spirit of the Lord is on me,
because he has anointed me to
proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to proclaim freedom
for the prisoners and
recovery of sight for the blind,
to set the oppressed free.
-Luke 4:18

This includes wives and children abused by slavery, polygamy and male headship.

Some people claim Paul endorsed male headship and at first glance it seems this might be true–but only if we single out certain texts without reading them in context. Paul was writing to people in societies where male headship and feminine cults were the norm, but if we read through all of his writings, we discover he was trying to set people free from any mindset where someone uses power over another. This is why he wrote:

There is neither Jew nor Greek;
there is neither slave nor free;
nor is there male and female,
for you are all one in Christ Jesus.
-Galatians 3:28

Paul contributed to the understanding that the ground at the foot of the cross is level. No hierarchies there–especially since Jesus gave up everything to become the lowest of the low and the servant of all. Male headship is the opposite of what Jesus did because it puts one person above another. Yet some people still claim Jesus is subservient to the Father. They say this because they are not reading the entire Bible.

Yes, Jesus DID submit to the Father, but the Father also GLORIFIED Jesus. The Spirit LED Jesus into the wilderness, but Jesus SENDS the Spirit to us today. Jesus says the Spirit will only tell you what I tell Him to tell you. Why would Jesus need to say this? Because he wanted us to know The Spirit will never contradict His teachings. The members of the Godhead serve each other with other-centered love putting each other first.

The Trinity is our example for marriage, the church and in all relationships. The scripture says male and female were both created in God’s image. By designing Eve from Adam’s rib, God was making them one. It wasn’t until Adam had someone to love, that he even could bear God’s image because he bears only one part of God’s image and the Godhead lives in other-centered love. Eve is the other half of God’s image in the human race and she and Adam both provide someone for the other to love. Without love, there is no image of God, because God is love.

As for the Father being the head, Paul used such an illustration as an example of the church submitting to Jesus because while Jesus was living here on earth He submitted to the Father in all things. But this is only one half of the equation because Jesus Himself said:

“The Father and I are one.”

“If you’ve seen me, you’ve seen the Father.”

When Jesus prayed in John 17, He prayed that His followers might be one like He and the Father are one.

Even the Hebrew Shema states, “The Lord Our God is One.”

I am not a theologian, but I will use the words of one to say it better than I can:

“I prefer to argue that we have misunderstood what the Bible means when it says that the husband is head as Christ is head (Eph 5:23). From my study, the head-body relationship in the Bible does not indicate unilateral authority. Rather it indicates mutual submission and shared authority.

“God is the head of Christ who is the head of the husband who is the head of his wife (1 Cor 11:3). What does this mean? I think it means that God is embodied in Christ; Christ is embodied in the church; and the husband is embodied in the wife–as his own body (Eph 5:29-30). Jesus as the embodiment of God says all power is given to me in heaven and earth (Mt 28:18). Therefore the Father has no authority that is not shared by the Son. So it should be with the family. The husband has no authority that is not shared by his wife.”

“The head of every man is Christ, the head of woman is man, and the head of Christ is God” (1 Cor 11:3). On the one hand, in chronological order, “man is not from woman, but woman from man. Nor was man created for the woman, but woman for the man” (11:8-9). On the other hand, in Christological order, “Nevertheless, neither is man independent of woman, nor woman independent of man, in the Lord. For as woman came from man, even so man also comes through woman; but all things are from God” (11:11-12).
-Martin Hanna

We see how after sin entered this world, God gave Adam responsibility for the family because two sinful people vying for control would create constant fighting and chaos. If you don’t believe this, just listen to a few divorce stories. But this was never God’s original plan. Jesus came to teach us God’s ideal of loving each other in equality with other –centered love just like the Godhead.

Paul agrees with this by teaching wives to submit to their husbands and husbands to love their wives like they love their own bodies. The Spirit of the Godhead teaches that we are both to submit to each other and to love each other as we love ourselves. Any form of using power over each other goes directly against the golden rule to do unto others as we would want to be treated and destroys love.

Slavery, polygamy and male headship do not reflect the godhead or God’s intentions for any human being in marriage or without. If a religion teaches this, it’s only because they are using the example of Abraham over Jesus and taking human cultural traditions over God’s law of other-centered love.

* For greater understanding on why true Christianity does not use power over, compare The Steps of Jesus vs. The Steps of Satan.

For more information on Male Headship within Adventism read:

Andrews University on the Unique Headship of Christ Statement

A Short History of the Headship Doctrine in the Seventh Day Adventist Church by Gary Chudleigh

Male Headship 2—What is Male Headship?

18 Jun

I’ve asked women to share with me what their definition of male headship is and this was one of the best:

“Male headship is patriarchy in a marriage or in a society. It’s the idea that males should be given some ultimate advantage, priority, or responsibility in decision-making and leadership.”

There are various applications and headship looks different across many cultures, but male headship usually boils down to the practice and belief that a man is superior to a woman. Not all men who practice male headship are cruel, some lead their wives and daughters lovingly and with great affection, but the underlying lie is still there that the wife is inferior and is not capable of making her own choices. She supposedly needs a man to tell her how to act and what to think and ultimately what to believe about God.

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Male privilege places all the power in a relationship with the man. This leaves the women subjugated to his will and often denies her voice. The result is that in many male headship cultures women are treated as property. This was even true in the United States a century ago when woman were fighting for the right to vote.

Male headship in practice can leave a woman with no recourse when a man is cruel. In Christian circles, some say women are “different but equal” and some men who belief in headship are very kind to their women. If this was always true, if every husband treated his wife as Christ loves the church and treasured her body as his own, then perhaps there would be no reason to write this, but this is not the reality for most who practice headship.

For an example of male headship within distorted Christianity check out, “The Witness Wore Red.” book review and Things I Found in Common with Polygamist’s Daughter. A Fundamental Latter Day Saints might seem like an extreme example, but many Christians who practice male headship are only a stone’s throw from abusing women in a similar manner.

It puzzles me that so many Male Headship Christians are firmly against Islam. They preach against Islam and share horror stories about Islam, yet they fail to recognize that male headship taken to its natural conclusion looks just like Islam. If headship is allowed to flourish, women continually lose one right after another until they fade into the background and become invisible.

One woman describes it like this:

“Given ultimate power in a relationship makes it too tempting for a man to interject selfishness and get his own way–often at her expense. Under extreme male headship “women can’t drive, can’t travel without a male escort, can’t shop in male only stores (anywhere that isn’t grocery or women’s clothing) can’t go to museums (except on women and children days) can’t swim unless there are women only days at the pool, is subject to genital mutilation (to make sure sex is so painful that she will never have sex with anyone but her husband–who will have to cut her open the first time) will be killed for being raped, because SHE “SHAMED” the family. Must cover her face at all times (even in her own home) if a man who isn’t her husband, brother, or son (brother-in-laws don’t count) is present–the list continues to infinity.” -Kathy Ringering Wendt

Another wrote:

“Male headship is that just by being born a male they are in charge of all who are born female. It is saying that females are born second class citizens. It says that females start out under the rule of their fathers and are then passed on to be under the rule of their husband and if they are widows they are under the rule of elders. Ultimately, the husband is the priest of the household he stands between God and the wife.” -K.S.

Regardless of the many ways male headship is abused, I think placing a man between a woman and God is the biggest lie of all. There is no justification for cruelty. We can often see violent and base behavior for what it is, but packaging God in such a way as to make Him seem more accessible and more in favor of men, robs women of their direct access to God and their God-given right to act freely on their own conscience.

How might this look in a traditional Christian environment? It looks like a father telling his daughter how to vote or what to say in court. It looks like a father treating his wife as if she doesn’t exist because she disagrees with him about God. It might look like a father refusing his daughter an education. It could also look like shunning a woman at church who has been given a gift and calling by God or even worse a witch hunt to criticize and condemn her.

A few years ago, some friends of mine went to a marriage seminar weekend and came back to inform the rest of our study group that men are the leaders in the home and in the church and women are merely here to assist men. Because I was a co-leader of that group along with a man, I just rolled my eyes–until I realized they were serious.

At the time, my pastor had asked me to serve communion with the men and had asked if I would consider becoming an elder. Because I knew there were some in our church who adamantly were opposed to women leaders–including my friends, I felt it would only cause trouble so I said no. I didn’t say no because I was unable to care for other people. I have known elders who took no interest in my life but I knew I had the gift of encouragement and teaching, but I still said no. Part of the problem was that I perceived that to be an elder meant some sort of hierarchy. Today I realize it simply means you are willing to serve others as Jesus does. So why would a woman not be able to do this?

When the husband of this couple heard that I had turned my pastor down, he told me he was proud of me for saying no–that I was too nice of a person to be standing up for women’s leadership in the church. I wish I had asked him what he meant, but I had been conditioned by my father to let the men lead and I had been taught by my mother to not to make waves, so I shrunk back from following God’s lead because I was listening to men who were supposedly superior to me and had a more direct line to God.

This incident happened over a decade ago. After studying the life of Jesus these last ten years, I am convinced that God not only calls women, but the Bible shows how women were strategically placed in the gospel story to empower Eve to reclaim her rightful place as Adam’s equal. But before we get into Eve’s restoration, let’s talk about where headship came actually from.

Do you see Male Headship as it is described above, or do you have a different way of looking at it?

Male Headship 1—A Young Girl’s Perspective

17 Jun

It was just before my sixth birthday when my Mom took me school shopping for the first time. As we went from store to store, I tried on dresses while she adjusted the collars, then she had me twirl around so she could look at all sides of me. I reveled in her attention because we’d had very little quality time since my youngest sister’s birth six months before.

When we got home, Mommy suggested I put on my new dresses and have a fashion show for Daddy. I ran to my room full of excitement to be the center of my parents’ attention. I threw on one of my new plaid dresses not bothering to take off the tags, but carefully adjusting the collar just like Mommy had shown me.

I ran back out to the living room and twirled around—until my eye caught a look of disappointment on Daddy’s face. As I turned to look at him, his eyes fell to the floor and he cleared his throat, then he turned to Mommy and with a disappointed voice asked, “Why are you dressing her in men’s clothes?”

Mommy said they weren’t men’s clothes–they were plaid dresses which was what all the little girls were wearing in 1969. Daddy asked if she could take the clothes back. Mommy said it wouldn’t matter because it was the only style in the stores at the time.

As they continued to argue about my new clothes, I lowered my head and slunk back to my room. There was no use in trying on another dress, everything we bought—including my lunchbox was plaid.

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This was my first experience with male headship. No one called it that, but I picked up on several things in this encounter.

1. It is Wrong to Dress Like a Man in any way
As I grew older I was told that long hair was given to a woman for a covering and it was wrong to cut it. I was not allowed to wear jeans because they were men’s clothing and it would be a dishonor to God for me to dress like a man. I once started to hand my brother a purple towel, but I was told not to give him purple. This confused me.

While I was not to dress like a boy, I was also not encouraged to wear many girly things because they fit under the category of vanity. All nail polish, makeup and jewelry were forbidden. I was once threatened with belting for wearing tinted chapstick. I was told it was inappropriate to show skin or swim with boys and  I was taught that what I wore might cause some boy to sin, so I had to be modest at all times. My parents read and followed a little book called Creeping Compromise which was about the evils of external behavior.

2. Men Are Superior and Always in Charge Except for the Kitchen
It’s a man’s world but women are given a supporting role. Men get to make the rules and decide what you wear and if they don’t like it, they can make you take it back. This issue of being in charge went beyond clothing. It covered just about any part of my life. It meant that food must be ready the minute my dad came in the door. That if he was in a bad mood, I had to tiptoe on eggshells and do whatever he wanted or I would be belted. Sometimes it seems I was belted just because he was in a bad mood. When I was small, my mom used to say she hated it when my dad punished me in anger, but she didn’t stand up for me because they were a team and had agreed to remain in agreement even when they weren’t.

When it came to music, we could only listen to music if my father approved it or he was in a good mood. In order to keep control of me, my parents decided to keep me out of school to protect me from getting contaminated by the world. Basically I stayed home and worked as their slave for most of my teen years. From an early age I was expected to bake six loaves of bread every week, do a large portion of the housework, cook large meals for a family of six and babysit my siblings.

3. Women Are Not as Smart or as Spiritual as Men
I knew this was true because my mom never did anything that my dad did not want her to do. She deferred to him in everything except cooking and cleaning. In that realm she was in charge, but she still had to have supper ready when he was ready to eat.  Everything in our home rotated around my father’s moods. While we were not a quivering family, my parents’ had specific expectations for women and they did not include me learning to be independent.

The weird thing was that my father once told me that he felt bad because his mother never learned to drive, so he said he wanted me to learn to drive and have a way to make a living, but somewhere between this idea and reality he never taught me to drive nor found a way to help me go to school. Another time he told me if my husband ever asked me what I wanted to do to have an idea and not act passive. I got the idea from both of my parents that my opinion mattered—but only as long as it agreed with theirs.

It’s the saddest mystery in my life that my father actually tried to encourage me to be a strong woman, but then told me not to be like other strong women we met. When a woman showed leadership, my parents said she wore the pants in the family. If a woman did not have children, she was called selfish. If the pastor’s wife worked for a living, she was called worldly and material minded. The women we met were none of these things, but to a young girl this made an impression that I had no right to do anything but be a housewife and please my husband.

Nowhere was this idea of men in charge more obvious than when it came to what we believed about God. My mom taught me to trust God and obey and I will always have a special place in my heart for her loving ways of teaching me about Jesus as a small child. As I got older, my dad was the only one in charge of worship and then only if he was in the mood.

My maternal grandmother was a Bible worker who brought nearly a hundred people into the church in her lifetime, but my father never agreed with her about God. If Grandma began to teach me something she was reading about, it almost always guaranteed that my dad would end up in an argument with her. When we drove away, he would say she never went to theology school and didn’t know what she was talking about. It wasn’t until I was in my forties that I discovered my grandmother had a much better picture of God than I had grown up with. She was powerless to speak to me much about it, but she tried to give me the crumbs under the table.

The place my father’s control affected my life the most after the spiritual expectations was my education. School was never a priority for my dad and he didn’t see it as one for me. I was told to tell people at church I was being homeschooled, but they never bought the books. If I asked for books and complained about not keeping up with kids my age, I was called spoiled and selfish.

When I finally went to college, I had few career choices that seemed acceptable to my family. My interests included psychology which was considered evil, becoming a pastor which was out because my father had tried to talk me out of attending the Christian University I chose because they had a woman preacher. And there was no way I could consider anything in the medical field because I had never had science since the sixth grade. It seems that from my father’s perspective, my obvious career choices we just as inappropriate as those plaid dresses he wanted my mother to take back. Because I was so unprepared, college turned out to be a very confusing and depressing time in my life.

If I gave the impression my father did not love me, that’s not true, but there was this dichotomy between his words and his behavior. My mother contributed to my role expectations too because she told me in third grade that my mind was not made for math like hers. This sort of headship mindset really confuses a girl and makes her wonder if she can be good at anything besides cooking and cleaning.

While I am not angry about my childhood at all, I certainly had to reframe events so I could heal from it. This blog has explained the perspective of male headship from my own childhood and teen perspective, but others have had a much more brutal treatment. I don’t believe that what I experienced is the norm. Many children who grow up with male headship struggle in different ways. If you are one of those, please feel free to share your experience with me, I would love to hear your story.

In my next blog I will discuss why I believe male headship is NOT God’s plan.

Did you grow up with different rules and expectations for girls and boys? How does it affect your life today? 

Story Behind the Art—I Am My Own Person

17 Jun

I remember sitting in the car after cashing the largest paycheck I received as a teenager. I had planned to buy a book to study for my GED and buy some shoes that did not have holes in them. I can still hear the clearing of the throat. Then the questions asked in a very loving voice.

“Do you love Jesus?”

“Why of course I love Jesus.”

“Well Jesus gave up everything for us. He gave His all, don’t you want to be like Jesus?”

Well… when they put it that way what could I say? I gave them my entire check of $ 350.

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I gave up my money that day and many other days because I felt I had no choice. I grew up thinking God wanted my money and if I didn’t pay Him, He would kill me. This spiritual abuse from my teens nearly destroyed my relationship with God.

Today I realize God has all the money He wants and what He desires most from me is my heart. He only wants money from a willing heart because the Bible says God loves a cheerful giver. And another thing–God is always true to Himself.

If we are faithless,
God remains faithful,
for He cannot deny Himself.
-2 Timothy 2:13

God doesn’t pretend to please any one and He doesn’t ask us to give up who He designed us to be. We have not been asked by God to abandon our individuality for anyone else. I wish I had known this before I spent years people pleasing, but when we know better, we do better. Just as every sunflower is different, each person is unique. God created us to sing or preach or write or paint and He wants us to become who He designed us to be.

This quote has been shared among the blogs of several of my survivor friends. To say it spoke to me would be an understatement–it seemed to shout my name. This is the sort of quote I was once discouraged from thinking about because I was told it reeked of humanism and feminism. Today it speaks of freedom and individuality to this girl who once gave herself away before she even had a self.

Making This Art

Because there are so many words, I knew this might be difficult to create. I tried to picture the words in my mind as a picture.

I am drawn to sunflowers because they soak up the sun and it empowers them to stand taller than just about any other flower. I see a spiritual connection to myself soaking up “the son” so I too can stand taller.

I wanted the flower in the middle to both divide some of the words and to represent each of us. The most powerful words in the verse are hand written to personalize this truth.

I used a simple yet rustic background because I knew it could not be too busy or it would compete with all the words.

Next I created a large sunflower and then the smaller sunflowers out of water color paper and cut them out and glued them on with gloss medium. I used three coats to seal it.

The last thing I did was stamp the rest of the words on and put several coats of gloss medium in the whole thing.

It took about five hours total. It’s a great reminder of an important truth I have often neglected when I was younger, but with this hanging on my wall, I doubt I will ever forget.

What about you? Have you ever set fire to yourself to keep someone else warm?


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