Not Safe, but Good

It’s happened again. Someone beautiful and young has died way too young. A young college student going for a bike ride on a beautiful day was hit by a truck and has died. It was the worst kind of accident because the person who hit her wasn’t drunk or breaking any traffic laws. The sun was in his eyes and there is no person to blame. And when there is no person to blame, I don’t know about you, but I want to blame God.

I want to blame God because He has all power and He could of stopped this horrible event, but He didn’t.

I want to blame God because even after the event happened, He could still have healed her, but He didn’t.

I want to blame God because even after death, He could of brought her back to life, but He didn’t.

Thousands of people shared a picture over a prayer request, so it seems the least God could do was answer all those prayers of faith and heal her, but He didn’t.

Tears in a Bottle, Little Red Survivor Art, Cherilyn Clough
Click on picture to buy print.

Our expectations of God are leaving a lot of broken-hearted people with a question on their minds even if they don’t say it out loud (and I’d be lying if I said it didn’t cross my mind too) what is up with God?

And more specifically with Jesus–the same Jesus who woke up a little girl already dead, the same Jesus who called Lazarus out of the grave and raised Himself from the tomb.

For me, it’s never been a question of can God heal?–but will God heal?

I was taught to always specify that God’s will would be done, but that has always seemed like an out so we have an excuse to explain to unbelievers when the answer is no.

And I hate no answers. At times like this I to want to scream and pound on God’s chest because it feels like we’ve been snubbed in our darkest hour.

But then I am left with the rest of life in this world where beauty and kindness still exist–although less so when good people die–and people echo back and forth to each other that “God is good all the time.”

And at times like this, I want to pound and cry at heaven’s door, “Show me your goodness once more! Just throw me something, God!”

Well it’s true, part of God’s goodness is that He is not put off by our fears and tears, doubts and shouts and tantrums. He just stands there while we blame Him and He can take it because He realizes our blaming comes from our pain.

I imagine God is hurting too because maybe His hands were tied. What? Does that sound like crazy talk? I just said maybe He couldn’t stop this stupid accident from happening. Well what kind of God is not able to have complete control? The kind of God who gives away power to humans and angels.

Tragic events will never stop stunning me or you–

Jesus said, “In this world you will have trouble.”

Not everything that happens is God’s will–

Jesus said, “Pray for my will to be done on earth as it is in heaven.”

Even when the unspeakable happens–

Jesus says, “An enemy has done this.”

It’s discouraging to realize we are living in a war zone between God and his enemy–an enemy who never plays fair, but we’ve been given a promise that God will work all things together for good despite brutal attacks from God’s enemy.

My dear friend Amelia has had a bad week. Just a couple weeks ago, she found out she had thyroid cancer and then had surgery and now she has been dealing with all kinds of dizziness and sickness due to hormone and calcium imbalances all week. She has young children and I can only imagine how hard it is to want to be up and about doing things for the kids you love but have to be lying in bed. Today she posted:

“Just suggesting, please, all of you, avoid cancer. Drink green tea, rest a lot, and fill your life with happy. And if you do get cancer, you’ll be OK because God stays close by.” Even in her pain and sickness Amelia is saying God is good.

Jesus says, I will never leave you. Even in our sickness and loss and pain, God is for us and not against us.

As we remember the beautiful life of this beautiful, young college girl, I see how it might have happened–full of joy and love and light–a light so bright that God’s enemy wanted to destroy the influence–but all that really happened is that her short life will shine even brighter now.

She will shine brighter because the enemy cannot snuff out her influence on thousands of people who knew her or read about her. And as she gives life to 8-12 other people because she is an organ donor, she will shine even brighter. Through her sacrifice, Jesus will possibly bring other people back from the brink of death to live a little longer so they too, can know the Jesus she loved. Not that God can’t work miracles alone, but because He has given all freedom of choice, He chooses to work through people and their choices. This young women will have the honor of giving along with God—and this is how God wins the war against His enemy.

Her last words were “I can’t believe what a beautiful day it is!” And by the time she wakes up, she’s going to say those words again with even greater emphasis and joy.

By then we will have gone through our own transformations–perhaps the people she gave life to will be there too. Maybe the life she lived will contribute to someone else living forever. When we consider our short lives on this earth compared to eternity we are all just waiting to go home.

How do you know what your life will be like tomorrow?
Your life is like the morning fog–
It’s here a little while, then it’s gone.
-James 4:14

Scary world we live in, but I love the way C.S. Lewis describes Aslan.

He’s not safe, but he’s good.
-C.S. Lewis

The same can be said of God.

Have courage broken hearts, because eventually we will all say, “God is good all the time.”

Here is a great podcast for those who wonder why God lets bad things happen to good people–

After Collision with Truck, Walla Walla University Student Madison Baird Passes Away

4 Replies to “Not Safe, but Good”

  1. A book that I’ve found helpful is “God in Pain” by David Asscherick. What we forget many times in our pain is that God has gone through an immense amount of pain as well. He understands what we are going through. “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin.” Hebrews 4:15 ESV

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  2. Thank you for writing this…. it has helped me. I have been yelling at God since she died – for all the reasons that you said. This helped.

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