Congratulations, It’s a Narc

Think of that moment in a movie or real life when a laboring mother is panting and pushing, while the father is offering her words of encouragement, then finally the moment comes when they hear a cry and the doctor announces those magical words, “Congratulations, it’s a boy!” Or “Congratulations, it’s a girl!” Everyone cries happy tears in this very emotional moment. Well let’s consider this moment from the baby’s point of view:

He’s being ushered into a harshly bright and scary world where he will soon be asked to live up to his mother’s expectations and bear his father’s judgment and criticism. He might even be beaten or starved or isolated from society–all because his parents’ needs will come before his. If only he were able to understand this at birth, the doctor might greet him by saying, “Congratulations, it’s a narc!”

And if the baby has siblings, the doctor could just as well say, “Congratulations, you’ve got flying monkeys!” What a family lottery to win! If only we knew what we were dealing with from birth. It might not hurt so much when they fail to love and respect us. Some people think babies should come with instructions, but I think narc parents should too. “Congratulations, it’s a narc! Go ahead and crush the eggshells, because when all is said and done, it won’t make any difference.”

Most children of narcissistic parents grow up wondering what’s wrong with them. Why do I feel so sad or angry? Why do I feel shame to be sick or have needs or share how I’m feeling? Why can’t I be like normal people? All of these questions and so much pain could be avoided if only we could recognize narcissism by scabs like we do chicken pox.

A man once told me to stop calling my parents names and encouraging other people to call their parents names. By names, he was referring to the noun narcissist. He simply didn’t have empathy for those who were raised differently than him. He was apathetic. I am not close to this person so I was able to see through him and walk away. Lack of empathy is another sign of narcissism, but I really don’t like calling people names.

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So why do we refer to our abusive parents as narcs? And how do we know this is not a lack of empathy? Because most ACoNs have spent their entire lives empathizing with the narcissist. As a matter of fact some studies have shown narcissistic people often target empathetic people. So if you were the most empathetic child in a family, chances are you were targeted by your narc parent to provide their narcissistic feed. For more information on this check out the Empathy Trap book.

We use the term narcissist loosely because we have to name it to claim it–otherwise we might never realize what we are dealing with. How is this helpful? Because for most of our lives we had no name for what was happening in our homes and lives. We were yelled at, beaten, shut out, belittled, scorned, made fun of and told we were the problem. As children, many of us going through such physical and emotional abuse blamed ourselves.

We thought we were responsible to make our parents happy, but the truth is children–young or old, are not responsible for their parent’s feelings. If you are not trying to hurt people, you can’t be held responsible for their moods and tempers and dark thoughts. Each person is responsible for themselves, but children of narcissists don’t realize this while growing up because narcissistic families don’t have proper boundaries.

Many ACoNs spent years believing we were the problem because we were told to “get over it,” “forget the past” and “stop causing trouble.” How little did we know these phrases might be the very symptoms of narcissism.

It was only by learning the traits of narcissistic personality disorder and hearing the stories of other victims, that many of us realized we are not responsible for the insanity in our families. Having a name and recognizing the symptoms of narcissism brings peace.

If you’re in doubt, and question if by some chance your parent is not actually a narc, then just watch and wait. See if they contact you. Listen for loving words that say, “I am sorry for your pain, I am sorry I hurt you.” My friend Mary Lou showed me what unconditional love from a loving parent looks like. I highly recommend you get to know people who are great parents of all ages and watch them and learn from them. Then, learn to give the little child inside of you this same unconditional love.

So how do we move on from being victims to survivors? The moment we say, “Thus far and no more.” We have stepped through the threshold into another possibility. It’s not enough to say, “I survived beatings and lies and mind warps and gaslighting.” It’s not enough to say, “My parents didn’t love me.” It’s not even enough to say, “My parents are still mad at me for making my own choices.”

Until you understand narcissistic personality disorder and realize it’s not you, it’s the narc, you can’t walk through this threshold of healing. If you’re still blaming yourself or hanging out with people who blame you, then you remain a victim, but if you can name it and move on, you will become a survivor. And if you can name and claim what you want without allowing the narc’s interference, if you have learned to go where you are celebrated, if you can suck the marrow out of life, then you have begun to thrive!

Every woman that finally figured out her worth,
has picked up her suitcases of pride
and boarded a flight to freedom,
which landed in the valley of change.
-Shannon L. Alder 

 

8 Replies to “Congratulations, It’s a Narc”

  1. I agree with the importance of being able to identify what is happening and think this is a very good post! I wonder though if an acronym, like ACoN for the children of abuse, for the abusive parent might have the same advantages for identification/clarification purposes without the overtones of name-calling/psychological classification that are there for some? Like maybe SAP (self-absorbed abusive parent) or EIDA (emotionally immature damaging adult) or something like that. It might actually make it easier for some ACoNs to identify what is going on, since they typically want to be “nice” and “fair” and kind of over-compensate around justice? Also it may in real terms be more representative of damaging parents, not all of which fall under the narcissistic personality disorder classification psychologically?

    Yeah, isn’t it sad that babies don’t automatically get loving, fair, nurturing homes that encourage them to become authentic adults? It’s been often remarked in my circle that it’s kind of amazing that people need licenses to drive cars, but anyone can parent…considering the potential for harm…

    Thanks again for your wonderful website!

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  2. Hi Andrea, Thank you for your great ideas and thoughts about this! I totally agree with you about the acronym ACoN, but I am not the one who invented it. It has been used for years by those in recovery from codependencey to narcissistic parents. It is similar to Adult Children of Alcoholics and exchange the word Alcoholic for Narcissists. Many times we hear people describe a narcissistic parent as a “dry drunk” meaning they might through fits or yell but they are not drinkers. If I were to make up a name, it would be more positive, but since this is what is already standard, I am hardly at liberty to change it. I also don’t believe this label defines the adult child as much as it defines their parent as a narcissist. We had no choice about our parents, we got what we got and now it is up to us to make the best of our situations.

    Thank you again for stopping by,

    Peace and freedom to you!

    Cherilyn

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  3. Hi again, just to clarify what I meant above: The acronym ACoN works well I think, if you read the N for “narcissistic abuse” rather than “narcissists” (since narcissistic abuse can also be inflicted by parents who don’t actually fit neatly into the narcissistic personality disorder category), and in my opinion an acronym for abusive parents would work better than just “narcs” which is just a subset of abusive parents anyway. I appreciate that certain terms are “standard” – however, we also have the freedom to use slightly different terms if we think it describes things better, and it can educate rather than confuse people. 🙂 Your blog, your choice: And it’s a great blog. PS: Not meant to lobby you to change your terminology, just a thinking point. We all “own” language. 🙂

    Wishing all reading a wonderful day.

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  4. Ran across your blog by accident, WOW! I found my daughter here! My 21 year old granddaughter has lived with my husband and I for about five years I took guardianship away from my daughter. I need to share all this with my granddaughter. I’m sure she will benefit. I sure have, just the last few minutes reading the descriptions of a narcissist. Talk about seeing the light! Incredible. More than that, THANK YOU for the tools with which to deal with all the insanity. Bless you!

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  5. Hi Dianne,
    I’m sorry this has to describe someone you know. I wish there were no narcissistic people in the world, but there are and some of us finally found the answers after years of pain. I hope you can help your granddaughter have a good and happy life and not feel guilty for not meeting her mother’s needs. Thank you for sharing a part of your story!

    Peace and freedom to you,

    Cherilyn

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