Memoir, Relationship

Angry Relatives and Memoir

Today’s blog is not a pretty picture blog because I am going to share some of the ugly reality about writing a memoir and dealing with angry relatives. If this is not your mug of mocha, please excuse this and know I will try to write about blue skies and fluffy koalas in the future, but for the sake of those who are writing their own memoirs, here are some thoughts I had after a relative’s hate-mails last week.



Writing a memoir is not for the faint of heart. It involves accessing both our sad and happy memories and it requires an honest telling of the truth–all of which many people find difficult. The best memoirs include the author telling on his or her self. This is because a memoir is not a rant or hate biography in which you list every terrible thing that happened to you, but it’s a story about how your character woke up and changed over time through these events. Memoir is not about the mean the things that happened—it’s about making meaning out of the things that happened.

One of the most difficult issues with writing a memoir is that your family might not appreciate it. And if they are narcissistic or afraid of you telling the truth, they will attack your character and try to make you out to be a bitter and hate-filled person when in reality you might be one of the healthiest people in the family because you cared enough to do the hard work to understand your own issues.

My relative’s hate-mails accused me of lying because I said a cat was thrown against a fireplace wall. My sister says she is “dead sure she remembers it exactly like it was yesterday” even though she was nine and I was eleven. The conflict came about because she says it was a freestanding cone-shaped fireplace, while I maintain there was brick wall, but the thing is most freestanding fireplaces have a brick firewall behind them. The point is not really about the wall, but the event that happened there. When people want to nit pick and right talk, you know they wouldn’t believe it if Jesus himself came down to settle the argument. This reminds me of one of my favorite quotes:

I deal very little in facts,
facts can obscure the truth,
you can tell so many facts you never get to the truth,
you can tell the places where,
the people who,
the times when,
the reasons why,
and never get to the human truth
which is love and pain and loss and triumph.
-Maya Angelou

This was one of the most traumatic events in my childhood. For my parents to deny it is one thing, I’ve come to realize they either don’t remember things or choose to not remember them, but for my sister to attack me and send me hate-mail full of false accusations and evil surmising was a shocker. Even if no one else in my family agrees with me—that’s okay, this is still my story, not theirs.

Some family members have chosen to NOT have a relationship with me now for years. I’m sharing this information for my readers who are writing their own memoirs to show how two people can both be telling the truth as they see it and still disagree.

Another thing my sister mentioned in her hate-mail is “You’re not the only writer in the family”–threatening to write a memoir about me and all the things I did in our childhood. So for open disclosure, yes, I hit her once with a metal spoon when we were kids and made her bleed and in college I stole her quarters, but I later admitted it and apologized. Mind you, most of these events happened over forty years ago and we’ve spoken about this several times and she has told me she forgave me. Now, because I am writing a memoir, she is suddenly calling me a monster.

My past crimes are worth mentioning because they prove the point of my memoir–we grew up with a violent father who told me to make sure the other kids finished their chores before my parents got home. I was given permission to hit them. I regret it now and I did not use the belt, but I did hit them–usually with my hand. I was not happy to do it, but if the chores were not done, I myself would be belted. There are only five and a half years between my youngest sibling and me. To put me in a position to make them do their chores wasn’t fair to me or them. It stole my right to be a child along with my siblings and forced me into the adult role of enforcer which also affected our relationships. I was asked to play a game I could never win.

My issues with my parents are not as much from thirty years ago as they are from the last decade. They have continued to lie about me to cover up their own lies. They have continued to call me mentally ill in hopes distant relatives who don’t know me will believe them. They are the ones who wrote a letter to judge lying about me, so this puts me in the odd position of being lied about for telling the truth.

It was this treatment and lies in my adult life that triggered me to look back at my childhood and discover how our entire family was held together by a web of lies. My parents have not apologized or owned the stuff that they did to me in childhood or my adult life. The last time I saw my mom and mentioned how it hurt me that they did not let me go to school and then refused to allow me to even talk about my pain, she just said, “High school is not all it’s cracked up to be.” Which might be true, but she got to go to highschool. She has friends from her teen years. Because I did not go to highschool, I have neither. I realize they can’t fix the past, but they sure as hell could show some empathy to their children for their choices which hugely affected our lives.

Once again, why share this crap publicly? Because if you choose to write a memoir, you need to realize how volatile it can get when you tell the truth. Your real life character will be drug through the mud and your sanity questioned by people you never dreamed you would hear such garbage from.

There are only two explanations for my sister’s hate-mail, she is either a flying monkey or actually a narcissist herself. I’d rather not dwell on it too much because the result is the same—a broken relationship. And I do mourn the loss of relationship with all my siblings and my parents but I have a new standard since my awareness of all the dysfunction in our family—without respect and honesty, we’ve got nothing.

I can also tell my sister is triangulating with my parents because she knows I am not mentally ill—but she ended one of her hate-mails with “I really hope you are mentally ill, because that’s the only chance I will have of seeing you in heaven.” So basically she’s saying since we disagree about a memory of forty years ago, I might not go to heaven since my story doesn’t agree 100% with hers? I call bullshit on her. She doesn’t even know Jesus if she thinks she is the barometer of what is truth. My dad, whenever I didn’t agree with him in my teen years and adulthood, has called me mentally ill and he too, always believes God is on his side. This is religious abuse. No other way to explain it. With Christians like this who needs any religion?

As for God locking me out of heaven for writing my memoir–-the God I know is NOT like that. God is not arbitrary and he cares about our hearts which is more than I can say about my parents or my sister. So I think I will leave my fate and the fate of others with God. The saddest part about that statement is if she really believes God is going to shut me out of heaven for telling the truth about our childhood, then she has bought into the lies about God that my parents believe.

My sister is welcome to write her own memoir—although if she just wants to write a rant about all the things I did to her in our childhood it wouldn’t be a memoir, but a hate rant much like her letters last week. So here are a few things she (you know she is reading this so she can look for more things to criticize) and others might want to know about writing memoir.

If you want to write a memoir the main rule is to tell the truth as you see it. This means you can’t make up events, however you can give your own slant to the events that happened. An example of this is telling a backstory. You are not obligated to stick to the chronological order, but the events had to have happened.


A memoir is not subject to the same standards as say a newspaper. This is because memoir is about someone’s memory and no one’s memory is perfect. What some people fail to realize is someone else’s memoir is not about them–even if they had a part to play in the events that happened, but rather it is about the author and their memories, reactions and emotions. No one else gets to say what another person saw or felt.

Think of it like four witnesses at a traffic accident where each stand on a different corner. Chances are each will have experienced that accident differently and have a unique story to tell. This is true of the events in memoir. Even if someone thinks they remember how everything happened like it was yesterday, they have no more credibility than the author. And even if several people in the family ban together to say they all remembered it exactly the same, yet differently from the memoirist, they still have no say how the memoirist remembered this event or how it affected them. That is because the memoir is not about their memories, but the memories of the author.

If the family is led by a narcissistic person, the chances of memories agreeing with the narcissist over the memoirist is quite suspect because many people who write childhood memoirs are writing because they have been ostracized and scapegoated in the first place.

So is it worth writing a memoir to prove a point or get even with someone who has lied about you? No–at least not in my opinion. If you just want to write an angry rant about narcissistic abuse, you could finish it within a week or two. A true memoirist takes the time to read other people’s memoirs and learn the craft.

It took Jeannette Walls five years to write her memoir “The Glass Castle.” It took me five years to write down all my memories and for the last two years, I’ve studied the art of memoir by reading lots of memoirs and then books about writing memoir. I will give you a list of books at the bottom of this article. I’m sure others could write their memoirs faster, but part of my work was to make meaning of the events that happened. It’s not a memoir if it’s just a regurgitation of events or a bunch of isolated incidents.

A true memoir will have a theme and a beginning and middle and an end much like a novel. Some writers describe memoir as finding the plots in your life, while writing a novel is making up plots. To find the plots, we must first do a lot of work to discover what it is that hurt us in childhood and how it has framed the way we look at life today.

If you are having trouble understanding what a memoir is, think of it like a series of snapshots that make up a theme in your life. Two people can both go to the same wedding with cameras and come home with completely different pictures from different points of view. Is someone lying? No, they were both sincerely recording different things at the same event. Each could make a photo album of the event with a different theme. One might focus on the relatives at the event, while the other could be taking pictures of the decorations and food at the event. Neither is lying, both saw and focused on different things.

If you are planning to write a memoir, it’s not enough to just jot down events because there are specific hallmarks of the genre. Here are a few books to help you learn more about the art of writing memoir.

If you have favorite books about writing memoir or have written a memoir yourself, please feel free share it in the comments below with a link so others can read it too.

Good luck and enjoy your writing journey!

Writing the Memoir: From Truth to Art by Judith Barrington

The Art of Memoir by Mary Karr

Fearless Confessions: A Writer’s Guide to Memoir by Sue Silverman

Writing Down the Bones: Freeing the Writer Within by Natalie Goldberg

Handling the Truth: On the Writing of Memoir by Beth Kephart

Writing About Your Life: A Journey into the Past by William Zinsser

Inventing the Truth: The Art and Craft of Memoir by William Zinsser

Bird by Bird: Some Instructions on Writing and Life by Anne Lamott

4 thoughts on “Angry Relatives and Memoir”

  1. Great piece! Good book suggestions.
    I, too, am working on memoir. Sadly, the emotional crap has me stymied at the moment. This is such intense work.
    Best to you in your endeavors! I hope you are going to share it with your readers.

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  2. Hi Barbara,
    I hear you! You are not alone!
    What has helped me is figuring out what is the basic lie that I believed and how did that play out to enslave me or stop me from doing what was best for me?

    I found it helps to write out some things in third person so I can imagine myself as a witness to what happened instead of always being in it and feeling all the feels. There is certainly a place for both. Most childhood memoirs have a two voices–the voice of innocence which describes from the child’s POV and the voice of experience which is often used at the end of a chapter or beginning as a narrator. A show that does this well is Lark Rise to Candleford where the author narrates the events at the beginning and the end and ties up the loose ends.
    Hope these ideas are helpful!

    Remember you are free now and free to tell your story! Celebrate your freedom!



  3. Just a little thought: Your twisted sister appears mightily sure of her place in heaven!

    You kinda see this all over the place: The worst moral characters are so sure that God is on their side and that they’re going to heaven. And the guiltiest bastard in the crowd, as the excellent saying goes, is the first to throw the stone.

    And telling your story in truth is nothing like throwing a stone, although these characters can’t seem to tell the difference. Indeed, they make it so that their lies are truth. Black is white, and white is black. I worked contracts: 12-month contracts, 3-month contracts, as is the norm for many professions now in the age of non-permanency for anyone except, often, management. And my mother went around at the end of each of my contracts saying I’d been “sacked again”. (Just one very small small example of what she said about me.) I had made sure to remove myself from her circles and not allow her to access mine because I really didn’t want to deal with constant character assassination – I worked at least 400km from them and often interstate. If I invited her, she’d try to find someone to spread her poison to – once a friend of mine, when my mother started, said, “You know, this is my friend, and I’m not going to sit here while you say this stuff about her that I know isn’t true.”

    As a teenager, any friends I brought to the house got their ears filled with my fictitious crimes, so pretty soon I didn’t bring friends, or my friends and I stayed in tents away from the house and away from my family, or I stayed at their place. My mother even rang my friends’ parents to spead poison about me. Once after such a phonecall my friend’s mother came into the room crying and she hugged me and said, “I don’t know why your mother says such things about you, why she is always belittling you.”

    About this “she got sacked again” game my mother played: I’d say to her, “How can you say that? It’s totally untrue. Would you like to read the glowing references they gave me?” And she’d decline as I waved the papers in her face, and say, “Well if you were so great, why didn’t they keep you, and anyway they’re just saying nice stuff because they’re nice people and they don’t want you to starve in the street.” And you’d try to explain about contract work, and besides, I had core employers who gave me another contract when they had another opening later, for many years. But no, if anyone employed me again it was because they were Mother Teresa, not because I did a good job and got on with the people around me.

    I’d say, “But this objectively, verifiably is not the truth, look!” and she’d say, “That’s how you see it, and not how I see it. You are going to have to learn to respect other people’s point of view.”


    No wonder I no longer play. Best wishes to you! 🙂

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  4. Hi Andrea.

    Yeah, I call it the second coming of the pharisees when people are so sure of their salvation and threaten mine. I’m sure glad they don’t get to decide.

    I too, have come to the conclusion there is nothing that can convince a person who is determined to misunderstand us.

    I remember once I pointed out that a meme was not true and relative said, “Well I don’t care, it still says what I want it to say.” SMH!

    Maybe this is why Jesus said, “Whoever has ears, let them hear!”

    You can led a person to knowledge, but you can’t make them think.

    Thanks for all your comments!



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