There was a time when family members wrote a letter to a judge to discredit me because I told the truth. It was their desire to make me out to be a liar. It really hurt. I was so depressed I didn’t open the windows for weeks.
I went to a church where this guy named Joe offered to pray for me. Placing his hand on my head, he prayed for all the manure that’s been dumped on me to age and turn into fertilizer and bring new life. He said it would produce a beautiful plant to blossom and flower for God.
This simple prayer started my healing process. I learned about the law of sowing and reaping–that whatever we sow, we reap. I have no control over the narcissists and what they sow and even though they mean evil to me, I will say with Joseph in the Bible that what they meant for my harm, God meant for my good. I have no control over what others say and do, but I do have control over my own sowing. I choose to sow healing and hope and beauty and we all reap whatever we sow.
It’s been seven years and this website is the result of that prayer. I began to write and paint and express my pain and joy despite the lies and abuse of the past. As I share my story and listen to your stories, I realize we are all overcomers and as long as we choose to sow love, love is what we will reap. Despite all the shit dumped on us by narcissistic people, we can choose to make art with the broken pieces of our lives, because all this manure makes life.
If your heart is broken, make art with the pieces.